So, yes

[indiana_j]

So, yes, the holiday season is approximately 100000% harder than I ever thought it would be.  I have gone Hermit hardcore and, with the realization that I have done so, I'm trying to undo that by, you know, not drowning myself in books tonight but actually doing something that takes effort.

Like e-mailing people.

Reading is - a mindsuck.  I sit, I read for hours, I don't move from the couch; I don't think, I don't deal with things (i.e., emotions / the billion thoughts spiraling through my head), I just zone out.  It's good for me but I need to back away just a tad; there are things outside of my head (you know, friends) that I need to interact with.

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[cynjen]

love love

[indiana-j.livejournal.com]

<3

[technophobia.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[indiana-j.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

[aura-wolf.livejournal.com]

The head-space right now is indeed far from festive. I bought a frame yesterday for the picture your mom gave me when I was up. That led to looking through all my pictures of us together and just feeling so...just...you know. Cried myself to sleep last night too. Feels like moving through molasses trying to find the energy to do anything besides just sitting and staring into space.

*hug* Love you hon. And all my love and hugs to your parents too.

[indiana-j.livejournal.com]

*hugs!!* Love you, too, hon and send my love to your folks.

<3 I know how hard it can get, those moments that come on suddenly and seemingly last forever. I get hit with them a lot in the car and when I'm in the shower.