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Jan. 23rd, 2009 09:51 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
indiana_jFirst, I wanted to thank everyone for their support and wishes over the last two weeks. Life kind of sucked for a bit but you guys always come through. And I got my mommy. :D Thanks for the comments and emails - y'all rock.
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My subconscious needs to go jump off a cliff. I've been having pretty disturbing dreams and nightmares the last few nights. Normally when I have nightmares, they're things that play off my weird brain issues. I mean, I had those as well (I dreamt I was at my birthday dinner with half family and half friends and I got frustrated with not being able to order what I want and by the time I did, I was in tears and everyone left ...yeah.) but the others? Damn.
One night I dreamt that I was a cop but I was carting around the soul of a serial killer - it was hotly debated about how I got it. Either he attempted to kill me - and I saw that. Nothing like watching someone gut me. Or I killed him so I could then become a killer as well. The gutting scenes, TWO of them, were very visiual and it only got worse. When my personality switched over to his, it was a very physical reaction. Bones breaking, muscles ripping, blood everywhere...
And I wish I could write as well as I want to because I don't have the words to say how freaky that actually was.
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Work is apparently attempting to kill me. This should surprise no one.
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I seem to be still pretty stretched thin and I'm not quite sure how to unthin myself.
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I have a giant monkey, my mom is visiting soon, my roommates are great, my friends are awesome and I'm the maid of honor in a good friends wedding. Things could be much worse.
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My subconscious needs to go jump off a cliff. I've been having pretty disturbing dreams and nightmares the last few nights. Normally when I have nightmares, they're things that play off my weird brain issues. I mean, I had those as well (I dreamt I was at my birthday dinner with half family and half friends and I got frustrated with not being able to order what I want and by the time I did, I was in tears and everyone left ...yeah.) but the others? Damn.
One night I dreamt that I was a cop but I was carting around the soul of a serial killer - it was hotly debated about how I got it. Either he attempted to kill me - and I saw that. Nothing like watching someone gut me. Or I killed him so I could then become a killer as well. The gutting scenes, TWO of them, were very visiual and it only got worse. When my personality switched over to his, it was a very physical reaction. Bones breaking, muscles ripping, blood everywhere...
And I wish I could write as well as I want to because I don't have the words to say how freaky that actually was.
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Work is apparently attempting to kill me. This should surprise no one.
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I seem to be still pretty stretched thin and I'm not quite sure how to unthin myself.
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I have a giant monkey, my mom is visiting soon, my roommates are great, my friends are awesome and I'm the maid of honor in a good friends wedding. Things could be much worse.