indiana_j: (Walking alone)
indiana_j ([personal profile] indiana_j) wrote2010-02-13 07:50 am
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I don't know if this story takes place before or after my sister was born - if it's before, it was when my parents were living with my dad's parents in Philly as my dad looked for working when they had come back to the States after leaving the Navy.

Every night, without fail, my grandpop would come home from work and he'd put on my favorite song.  At the time, much to my poor parents distress, I was in love with "Rubbie Duckie" sung by Ernie from Sesame Street and while they hated that song (but still played it) my ever indulgent grandpop would put it on and as I started reaching for him, because I knew what was coming, he would take me out of my playpen and he would dance with me.

Every night to the same song.

I remember dancing with him at his retirement party (it was a crowded house but we managed and I remember it clearly) and he still loved to talk about the first time he'd ever danced with me.

RIP, Grandpop.

~~

He passed last night in his sleep, comfortable (even though he'd apparently been talking prior through enough morphine to put down a horse - yeah, that's my family for you) and surrounded by his family.  I was lucky enough that I had most of my grandparents through my twenties and both grandfather's through my late twenties.

I hate that my family and I have suffered through all these losses in such a short frame of time.  I'm tired and I'm going to continue to be tired for a while - all I can do is hope and pray that my Aunt Alice makes it out of the hospital okay soon.

Also, thank you to everyone who has helped me make it through these really, really difficult and shitty weeks.  I'm a mess right now, no getting around that, but I would be much worse if it hadn't been for you guys.  (For those who might feel the need to call - please do.  I'm not really going to be much good talking today but I can return phone calls tomorrow.)

[identity profile] marag.livejournal.com 2010-02-13 01:27 pm (UTC)(link)
::hugs::

[identity profile] fixeight.livejournal.com 2010-02-13 01:41 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry to hear that Jen. *snugz*

[identity profile] mysteri.livejournal.com 2010-02-13 01:42 pm (UTC)(link)
((Hugs)) I haven't been following LJ much so had no idea. I'm sorry for your loss. So glad you have so many wonderful memories of him to keep forever.
deathpixie: (between friends)

[personal profile] deathpixie 2010-02-13 02:47 pm (UTC)(link)
That's a lovely story - I'm glad you have such memories of him.

*hugs* Thinking of you, hon. Love you.

[identity profile] resplendissante.livejournal.com 2010-02-13 03:00 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, Jen, I'm so sorry. Let me know if you need anything.

(Also, it surprises me not even a LITTLE that you love(d) the rubber ducky song. :)

[identity profile] frito-kal.livejournal.com 2010-02-13 04:22 pm (UTC)(link)
My voice is kinda shot from the strep, so if I don't call, that's why. But I'm sure Twiller will.

[identity profile] thatpalebluedot.livejournal.com 2010-02-13 04:36 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* Here if you need anything.

[identity profile] gollumgollum.livejournal.com 2010-02-13 04:47 pm (UTC)(link)
love love. *bearhugs*

[identity profile] azzinita.livejournal.com 2010-02-13 09:31 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh hon, I been there. If you need anything love, you let me know, okay?
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[identity profile] http://users.livejournal.com/_bounce_/ 2010-02-13 10:11 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry to hear that.

[identity profile] seraangel.livejournal.com 2010-02-13 11:14 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs* I'm so sorry, mate.

[identity profile] technophobia.livejournal.com 2010-02-13 11:30 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs lots*

[identity profile] dreagoddess.livejournal.com 2010-02-14 12:36 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry.

[identity profile] tywyllwch.livejournal.com 2010-02-14 04:49 am (UTC)(link)
*hug*

I'm no good at anything but hugging at times like this. I'm really sorry you lost your grandpop, love.

*snuggles*

[identity profile] stacyx.livejournal.com 2010-02-14 01:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Sorry for you loss. *hugs*
cynjen: (fringe peter's big comforting hand)

[personal profile] cynjen 2010-02-15 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
*hugs*