Hard day

[indiana_j]

Heather's headstone was put into place without us realizing it, so we got - quite a shock on Saturday morning. (Look, it was probably a weird request for dad to ask that we be notified and be there for when it was delivered but they said 'yes' so it would have been nice to know...)

I compartmentalize really well and kept more of my reaction in than I would have as we were doing things after. It hit pretty hard last night, this feeling that it's really real and there's no waking up from this and carried through today.

I've lived with this for almost 8 months now - and, still, a part of me hadn't processed it. Still hasn't really. So I'm sitting here at Buzz, trying desperately to pull myself together before dinner with Nick and AJ, and wondering why I can't just find a cave to go and hibernate in for the next - year.

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Comments

[diamond-dust06.livejournal.com]

That's not a weird request. At least for Jews, we have a whole thing where the family gathers at the cemetery when the headstone is placed. They really ought to have let you know exactly when they were doing it.

[starfishumd.livejournal.com]

Yep yep we make a big deal about unveiling the stone, and then going back to have snacks with the mourners. Ben and I are very happy to have bagels with you any time. Just saying.

[indiana-j.livejournal.com]

Bagels, yes. Actually, I do need to find time in the next crazy two months to see you and Evan.

[starfishumd.livejournal.com]

Sheep and Wool festival is May 4 and 5. I think soft yarns and cuddly sheep may be just the antidote. You can come spend the weekend or just come for a day. :)

[indiana-j.livejournal.com]

Ack, I'd love to but Katherine and Brian's wedding is on the 5th and I'm driving up to the hotel on the 4th. D: Blast; I'd been hoping that festival was on a different weekend.

[hopeness.livejournal.com]

This was exactly what I was going to say.

[indiana-j.livejournal.com]

Thanks, hon; it does help to make me feel better. Finding it there was such a shock - I mean, I'm glad we have it and it's gorgeous but still.

[indiana-j.livejournal.com]

That actually makes me feel a lot better (and I mentioned that to my folks, so it helped them, too, I think). Marissa mentioned that once and, actually, I really like the idea of it.

*sigh* I mean, if they'd been put off, they could have hedged or said no, right? So what's the use in saying yes only to not follow through?

[starfishumd.livejournal.com]

It's just likely that a mistake happened - the request wasn't written down where the person who ordered the headstone would see in time. Still, I can understand the shock. <3