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Me vs. my brain
It's funny - I'm not an over-eater or a snacker. My issues generally stem from weird periods of not eating followed by eating things that aren't healthy, portions control issues and cooking things that are really not healthy. And the lack of exercise.
But the moment I start up on WW again, my brain immediately spends all it's time going "Ooh, I'm hungry. Hey, someone brought cake into the lunch room. Cake. Caaaaake. Cakecakecake!". I either cave, and feel gross, or don't cave but feel mildly grumpy. It's like my brain is evil and wants me to fail or because I'm concentrating so much on being good that it just triggers this weird thought pattern that never happens when I'm not activately trying to be better.
But I want to be serious about it this time, weird brain thoughts aside (also, screw you, cake!). It's sometimes a little harder to do when you live with others and kind of share the cooking - I can't force, nor do I want to force, my mom to suddenly start cooking WW or lighter fare unless she wanted to. I can't control those nights.
I can, however, control the nights I cook and they've eatened and enjoyed WW stuff (note to self: make the crockpot chicken thing again). So, that's one thing. My plan, I think, is to concentrate on the things I can control - breakfast, snacks, lunches and the dinners I make. On the night mom cooks, if I don't know what the points are, I get a small plate and be cool with it.
After all, it's pretty vital that I stay cool, that I don't beat myself up or guilt myself because it'll all come crashing down on me. I don't even care if I don't lose weight - I want to be healthy. I owe that to myself and my parents and my friends.
At lunch, I'm going to plan out lunches to make (since I can make those and not have to worry about feeding the parents) and some dinners and see how it goes.
And not look at the cake when I'm in there. (Disclaimer: I'd actually eat a slice if it looked good but, it doesn't, so it's just kind of mocking me. I mean, I had half a chocolate pastry thing from Panera today and a cup of fruit for breakfast and was perfectly happy. Also, jeez, Panera, 12 WW for that? I'm happy I went with half; there are things that are worth 12 points but not everything is)
But the moment I start up on WW again, my brain immediately spends all it's time going "Ooh, I'm hungry. Hey, someone brought cake into the lunch room. Cake. Caaaaake. Cakecakecake!". I either cave, and feel gross, or don't cave but feel mildly grumpy. It's like my brain is evil and wants me to fail or because I'm concentrating so much on being good that it just triggers this weird thought pattern that never happens when I'm not activately trying to be better.
But I want to be serious about it this time, weird brain thoughts aside (also, screw you, cake!). It's sometimes a little harder to do when you live with others and kind of share the cooking - I can't force, nor do I want to force, my mom to suddenly start cooking WW or lighter fare unless she wanted to. I can't control those nights.
I can, however, control the nights I cook and they've eatened and enjoyed WW stuff (note to self: make the crockpot chicken thing again). So, that's one thing. My plan, I think, is to concentrate on the things I can control - breakfast, snacks, lunches and the dinners I make. On the night mom cooks, if I don't know what the points are, I get a small plate and be cool with it.
After all, it's pretty vital that I stay cool, that I don't beat myself up or guilt myself because it'll all come crashing down on me. I don't even care if I don't lose weight - I want to be healthy. I owe that to myself and my parents and my friends.
At lunch, I'm going to plan out lunches to make (since I can make those and not have to worry about feeding the parents) and some dinners and see how it goes.
And not look at the cake when I'm in there. (Disclaimer: I'd actually eat a slice if it looked good but, it doesn't, so it's just kind of mocking me. I mean, I had half a chocolate pastry thing from Panera today and a cup of fruit for breakfast and was perfectly happy. Also, jeez, Panera, 12 WW for that? I'm happy I went with half; there are things that are worth 12 points but not everything is)