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So I'm not sure who bought me the blinged out glasses gift for LJ but thank you - it cheered up what's turning out to be a really sort of personal blah day.
2010-05-24
Oh look - the other shoe just dropped
So, while not all of you have had the pleasure of meeting my cat, you all have at least heard/read about her.
And it's not looking good. She's been terminally ill since she was 1 1/2 years old (fooled them all!) kidney issues. And lately she'd been losing weight, regaining and losing it again but finally she stopped regaining it. Up until about 3 days ago, she was her same old, whiny, adorable self. But then she started sleeping more and was moving slowly and wasn't sleeping with me anymore.
And today, she fell over and after I called a vets, I picked her up and she lost control of her bladder, urinating all over herself and me. She's never done that before and in a blind panic, I carefully packed her up and headed to the emergency vets.
She's currently under observation ($1,200, at the minimum, all of that upfront worth of observation) but the vet thinks it's her disease finally getting the best of her. Despite how hard this is, I told the vet that when she first became sick, I made a decision that I wanted to give her the best quality of life I could, not quantity. If it's really bad and she's in pain, I don't want to put her through that.
I'll know more between 11 pm and 12 am tonight. There's a chance, of course, that it'll be something that's fixable (expensive but fixable) but I have to realize that there's a good chance I'm going to have to say goodbye to my baby either tonight or tomorrow.
(Christ. It's been a long running joke/not a joke that I would not go into work if she died and tomorrow's the one day that I have to be at work. To give a presentation. Fuck.)
It's just - following everything in January -
I can't even stop crying long enough to post this damned thing.
And it's not looking good. She's been terminally ill since she was 1 1/2 years old (fooled them all!) kidney issues. And lately she'd been losing weight, regaining and losing it again but finally she stopped regaining it. Up until about 3 days ago, she was her same old, whiny, adorable self. But then she started sleeping more and was moving slowly and wasn't sleeping with me anymore.
And today, she fell over and after I called a vets, I picked her up and she lost control of her bladder, urinating all over herself and me. She's never done that before and in a blind panic, I carefully packed her up and headed to the emergency vets.
She's currently under observation ($1,200, at the minimum, all of that upfront worth of observation) but the vet thinks it's her disease finally getting the best of her. Despite how hard this is, I told the vet that when she first became sick, I made a decision that I wanted to give her the best quality of life I could, not quantity. If it's really bad and she's in pain, I don't want to put her through that.
I'll know more between 11 pm and 12 am tonight. There's a chance, of course, that it'll be something that's fixable (expensive but fixable) but I have to realize that there's a good chance I'm going to have to say goodbye to my baby either tonight or tomorrow.
(Christ. It's been a long running joke/not a joke that I would not go into work if she died and tomorrow's the one day that I have to be at work. To give a presentation. Fuck.)
It's just - following everything in January -
I can't even stop crying long enough to post this damned thing.
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First, thank you for all your thoughts, comments, emails and general being there for me.
I'll make this quick - it's advanced kidney failure. I'm heading out now to say my goodbyes because to keep her around any longer would be selfish. It's not in her best interest.
I have more thoughts on her but all I can think of right now is not that I gave her a great home for 12 years but that she was such an awesome cat to me, and my family, for 12 years. She gave us such joy and I can only hope I repaid her for that.
I'll make this quick - it's advanced kidney failure. I'm heading out now to say my goodbyes because to keep her around any longer would be selfish. It's not in her best interest.
I have more thoughts on her but all I can think of right now is not that I gave her a great home for 12 years but that she was such an awesome cat to me, and my family, for 12 years. She gave us such joy and I can only hope I repaid her for that.