"Alright, Merlin," I said, half-laughing, as I rested my hip on the cooling hood of my - our - car. "Show me the magic."
Your laugh grew from a muffled chuckle into a warm crescendo as the car went completely quiet and, as my eyes adjusted to the sudden desert darkness, I heard you slither back out, heard the car door slam shut and, as I squinted in the inky blackness, heard the crunch of your sneakers on the sandy dirt beneath our feet.
I laughed, suddenly, when you walked right into me; it hadn't been deliberate and it was a delight, that sudden press of you against me, our personal bubbles bending enough to encompass both of us. Now, when you laughed, I felt it vibrate through my hip and shoulder and my response wasn't verbal or physical - you couldn't see it. That flip of the heart, that stuttering, that never failed to happen when you were around.
A hand on my hip urged me away from the car and despite the knowledge that there might be coyotes or snakes or even just a hole to fall and break a leg in, I couldn't help but follow your lead. We don't go far; when we stopped, you slipped behind me, hands on my hips with finger tips slipping just so under the hem of my sleep rumpled t-shirt.
"Lean back." Murmured like that into my ear, why would I not do exactly that? Back against your chest, head against your shoulder, I know what you want me to do - I stared up.
Up, up and up. Into the never-ending dark as ink night sky; I looked up as the millions of diamond like stars stared curiously back down at us. I felt tears well up as I tried to soak in the universes that existed just out of reach - so close and yet so far away. The tears couldn't fall, though, not as I felt our breathing fall into a familiar pattern as you started to move us, as we danced to the music that forever existed in your head, with the stars as the only witness.
For a moment, I had a weird sensation of falling up and wondered what it would be like to drown in a sea of stars; but you grounded me to the desert floor, to this weird and stupid life we attempted to wade through.